He was Joseph this year! =)
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Ate's Baby Shower
Hosted by Bea L, Sookie C, Mayette V and myself at the President's Room in Polo Club at 6pm on Dec. 14, 2007.
4 Weeks, 5 Days (give or take a week)
I'm 4 weeks and 5 days pregnant! =) I can hardly believe it... So far, the ultrasound shows only one child (tiny! - maybe not even 2mm wide) in the 11.4mm gestational sac. I'm praying that God will grant me a safe, healthy pregnancy. I'm also keeping my fingers crossed for only one baby, not twins ;-p haha
How is this pregnancy different from my previous ones? I'm more emotional. I seriously cry at the drop of a hat! At a commercial I've seen before, during the sermon at mass! It's almost ridiculous! But it's just one of those things, I guess =)
Not smoking isn't so hard - especially since my little one doesn't seem to like it at all! Even just the smell of cigarette smoke makes me nauseous! Crazy! Pushing me around already! haha
We're praying for a girl, but a boy would be awesome, too! How fun it's going to be!
How is this pregnancy different from my previous ones? I'm more emotional. I seriously cry at the drop of a hat! At a commercial I've seen before, during the sermon at mass! It's almost ridiculous! But it's just one of those things, I guess =)
Not smoking isn't so hard - especially since my little one doesn't seem to like it at all! Even just the smell of cigarette smoke makes me nauseous! Crazy! Pushing me around already! haha
We're praying for a girl, but a boy would be awesome, too! How fun it's going to be!
Monday, November 26, 2007
i got my sign...
strange thing, this ambivalence i'm feeling about getting pregnant. i got my sign (the one i asked Mama Mary for) that i'm pregnant. but i got it the day after i got my period... so what does that mean? i'll be pregnant soon? or is She answering something else?
i wish things were clearer. while i was waiting for my period, i actually cut down on my caffeine, smoking and was really careful about the medicines i was taking... no popping a ponstan for the slightest headache. i just suffered through it... because i was worried that i might hurt the baby (if i was). but then... i got my period.
so... here i am. still waiting. i think that, in the deepest, darkest, most quiet recesses of my soul, i do want one. but... (and there's always a 'but'!) but... there's the practicalities to consider. do i really want to bring another life into this world? another person to love, to worry about and to lose sleep over?
I've always said that i enjoyed being pregnant and i do! it's the next 4 months that scare me. and i don't know how my boys would take it. they'd be over the moon with it for a while, but then when they see me paying more attention to the baby, they might resent her/him.
hmmm... more things to think about... sigh. it never ends...
i wish things were clearer. while i was waiting for my period, i actually cut down on my caffeine, smoking and was really careful about the medicines i was taking... no popping a ponstan for the slightest headache. i just suffered through it... because i was worried that i might hurt the baby (if i was). but then... i got my period.
so... here i am. still waiting. i think that, in the deepest, darkest, most quiet recesses of my soul, i do want one. but... (and there's always a 'but'!) but... there's the practicalities to consider. do i really want to bring another life into this world? another person to love, to worry about and to lose sleep over?
I've always said that i enjoyed being pregnant and i do! it's the next 4 months that scare me. and i don't know how my boys would take it. they'd be over the moon with it for a while, but then when they see me paying more attention to the baby, they might resent her/him.
hmmm... more things to think about... sigh. it never ends...
Friday, November 9, 2007
mixed feelings
I got my period yesterday... I was late for about a week and started hoping that I was pregnant. Don't know why. Hoping, I mean. It's not like we can actually afford to have another baby just yet. And we aren't even living in our own home, but still. The thought that I could be pregnant was consuming me. I prayed to Mama Mary and asked for a sign that I was, indeed, carrying a new life. Very unusual and specific, since I didn't want to mistake it for something else.
Obviously I didn't get it. I don't know... I worry that I'll be too old to have another baby. I worry that maybe I'll have a hard time getting pregnant again. I so want to have one. Doesn't have to be a girl, but... just my own. Again. Am I being selfish?
I know I'm blessed with three wonderful boys. They're awesome - so loving, kind, good, naughty and rowdy. Everything little boys should be. Did I mention noisy? =) But well... I want a little one. Another one that will call me Mommy.
My parents are totally against me getting pregnant. They are aware of our financial situation and don't want to add to my burden. My dad even asked me to have "my tubes tied"! How's that for paternal advice? And my mom gets distressed just thinking about me having another baby.
My wonderful hubby was working his mind toward acceptance of a new one. When we talk about it, he always says that we aren't ready for a new baby yet. He wants to build up our savings, move out and be totally independent from our parents before even considering it. But, he was so sweet when I asked him how he felt about me being possibly pregnant. He said, "Well, if we are pregnant, it'll be Mama Mary's gift to us. Because we helped in Subic." We were there for the Subic Marian Peace Regatta. It was a crazy weekend, not relaxing like we thought it would be, but really hectic, tiring and at the end of it all, rewarding.
When I got my period, he didn't know what to say. He was relieved, but still sad because I guess he wanted it too...
Obviously I didn't get it. I don't know... I worry that I'll be too old to have another baby. I worry that maybe I'll have a hard time getting pregnant again. I so want to have one. Doesn't have to be a girl, but... just my own. Again. Am I being selfish?
I know I'm blessed with three wonderful boys. They're awesome - so loving, kind, good, naughty and rowdy. Everything little boys should be. Did I mention noisy? =) But well... I want a little one. Another one that will call me Mommy.
My parents are totally against me getting pregnant. They are aware of our financial situation and don't want to add to my burden. My dad even asked me to have "my tubes tied"! How's that for paternal advice? And my mom gets distressed just thinking about me having another baby.
My wonderful hubby was working his mind toward acceptance of a new one. When we talk about it, he always says that we aren't ready for a new baby yet. He wants to build up our savings, move out and be totally independent from our parents before even considering it. But, he was so sweet when I asked him how he felt about me being possibly pregnant. He said, "Well, if we are pregnant, it'll be Mama Mary's gift to us. Because we helped in Subic." We were there for the Subic Marian Peace Regatta. It was a crazy weekend, not relaxing like we thought it would be, but really hectic, tiring and at the end of it all, rewarding.
When I got my period, he didn't know what to say. He was relieved, but still sad because I guess he wanted it too...
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Saturday, September 29, 2007
Our 5th wedding anniversary
Our favorite place to enjoy their very excellent coffee!
Patio Pacific, Boracay. The service there is excellent! The rooms are a bit small, but nice naman. The food was memorable. All in all, a wonderful weekend getaway that allowed us to relax, unwind and spend time together =)
The boys dancing to Hi-5 Space Magic
They really get into it! Jumping and turning and bouncing and... Well, you get the picture =)
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Friday, June 15, 2007
Thursday, May 31, 2007
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