Monday, March 31, 2008

Mica, the floater!




20 weeks, 7 days

I was hoping that the morning sickness would go away... Well, it's eased up, but still there.  It's such a pain!  Argh!  But at least I have medicine now from my doctor to help...

We went to Punta de Uian in Zambales last week and we had soo much fun!  I tease Mica, calling him "my little brown boy" and he gets soo mad at me!  He's like, "No!  Mommy!  I'm Micael!"  It's cute =)  He was so rosy when we came home, and now he's brown... hee hee

My feet were so swollen from the trip on the way up, it wasn't funny.  It hurt to walk!  And I was so tired that after we arrived there at 1:30pm-ish, I fell asleep til about 7.  Tab apparently couldn't wake me up!  He took the kids swimming on the beach and then in the pool, so when I woke up, i was surrounded by rosy little boys and a red man!  hahaha

The kids practically lived in the water and on the beach.  I couldn't swim because I didn't bring up a suit, but tabby enjoyed the water with them. I fell in love with him a little more when i saw how he was with the kids - patient and strong and super enjoying the time he had with them!  They loved that he was in the water with them! He's such a great dad, it's unbelievable!

We will definitely go back to Punta, especially since Guy and EJ are there!  I learned my lesson about the manas feet, so on the way back, I asked to tab to stop at several places so I could walk around.  Right when we got to Makati, my doctor's secretary called asking if I was going to make my appointment so I went to her and she gave us the happy news that it was officially a boy! 

Everyone was soo sure that this baby would be a girl, but... we are thwarted again!  Mayette (sis-in-law) says I now have a Polo team!  And my mom couldn't believe she was wrong in her prediction.  She guessed Mayette, Ate and Sookie's babies sexes correctly and she was soo certain that I was carrying a little girl.  But this boy is still a blessing and will always be a blessing!

Mica was so sweet last night, when I was putting him to bed, he rubbed my tummy and said "Mommy, this is my brother."  And then he lay face down, but with his hand still on my belly, patting it occassionally. 

The twins are always asking if the baby's asleep, crying or eating in my tummy.  They'll come up to me and put their ear against my tummy and say, very definitely "Mommy!  He's crying!" or "Mommy! Shh! He's sleeping!"

They're so excited to see and play with their baby brother!  They loove babies and I guess the thought that they'd have unlimited access to one is one that they are relishing! 

Sunday, March 30, 2008

The boys swimming with Papa! =)




In the pool of Punta de Uian.

Punta de Uian - Family Trip




We went to Punta de Uian - a lovely place on the beach about an hour away from Subic. It was beautiful! The kids had a blast, building sand castles, playing in the sand, swimming in the pool and wading on the beach. We will definitely go back! =)

Saturday, March 1, 2008

betrayed...

one of my yayas made paalam to pick up her sister and bring her to their house in pasay and then didn't come back.  it's been almost a week now.  at first i was disbelieving that she did that.  i don't mistreat my yayas.  never scream at them and pretty much treat them like family.  especially since they take care of my little ones.  I figure if i treat them nicely, they will reciprocate and treat my little ones nicely too!

Unfortunately, I found out tonight that that yaya has been hitting my little boy - rafa.  what sort of mother am i that i never questioned closely why gabe didn't like her?  Thinking back on the kids' behavior while she was here, now it makes sense why gabe didn't like to stay with her, no matter what.  and why rafa was reluctant to say sorry to her when i came down and she told me that rafa hit her in the arm (it turns out that she hit him on the head).  and why rafa had so many unexplained bruises and cuts that she "didn't know about" or didn't notice until i asked her where he got it. 

i wish i could turn back the hours and days and just not hire her or at least fire her before she got comfortable enough with me to feel like she could do this.

my remaining yayas say it's because i'm too nice to them.  how was i being too nice?  by allowing them to go on their days off?  i don't get it.  how do i know what is "too nice" and what is "just right" and what is "too much"?

i feel like a terrible, neglectful mother.  i didn't even realize that she was hurting my little boy.  how could i not have seen him?  what should i have done? 

obviously i'm not going to accept her again, in the unlikely event that she'll come back.  i will demand that she pay me back what she owes me.  the friend who recommended her to me has her cousin working for her, so i have a way of getting in touch with her.

i pray that she's ok and that she regrets what she's done to my little boy.  i pray that my boys don't think that what she did was ok with me.  i pray that rafa forgives me for allowing it to happen.